So, a little over a year ago I did a "100 Things I'd like to do" list.
And I'm going to bold the things I've done since..

100 Things I’d Like To Do

1 Paint my nails

2 Read more books

3 Clean my frog's cage

4 Call my friends

5 See Shayne

6 Cut out magazine pictures

7 Straighten my hair

8 Take pictures

9 Sleep

10 Get my passport

11 Begin to garden

12 Sleep in

13 Stay up later

14 My homework

15 Take a bath

16 Read a romance novel

17 Call Crystal

18 Play with Dakota

19 Clean my room

20 Think up lies

21 Have a whole day in peace and quiet

22 Go down to the creek

23 Take more walks

24 Go to the pizza place

25 Relax

26 Make tea

27 Bake cakes

28 Make my own frosting

29 Look up chicken recipes

30 Write more often

31 Go shopping

32 Paint my room

33 Beg for new/no carpet

34 Show Jason I love him more

35 Make people cards

36 Buy stupid things for my friends

37 Count to one-hundred twenty times

38 Wash my windows

39 Get the yellow dresser OUT

40 Dance in the rain

41 Walk in the rain

42 Play Magic

43 Do online games, ha.

44 Talk to people more often

45 Go outside more

46 Spin and spin and spin until I'm dizzy

47 Finger paint

48 Jump in the pool

49 Sit in the grass on a sunny day

50 GO on a hike

51 Four wheeling

52 Learn to drive a stick

53 Get my license

54 Get a job

55 Make my world better

56 Make up poems and song lyrics

57 Yawn until I'm extremely dizzy

58 Vomit, for fun.

59 Play with my frog. (RIP!)

60 Sleep

61 Cuddle

62 Eat wawa

63 Eat Maggie Moo's (RIP!!)

64 Go to the mall

65 Drive to my sister's to see Kota

66 Sweep someone's porch

67 Go plate shopping

68 CHURCH.

69 Attempt to stay on task. WOAH BUDDY

70 Climb a tree

71 Kiss a frog (preferred my own)

72 Take a bubble bath

73 Keep an agenda

74 Pretend I have something to do

75 Smoke.

76 Drink

77 Have a picnic

78 Sleep in the bed of my truck with Jase.

79 Look at the stars

80 Take pictures every waking moment of my life

81 Eat sweets

82 Make chocolate

83 And creampuffs

84 Go to any school function

85 Get involved

86 Tell my friends I love them

87 Drive my truck, ALONE

88 Go shoe shopping

89 Color leaves

90 Play at the park

91 Go to Longbridge park

92 Speak french

93 Go to France ( I CAN COUNT THESE TWO... THEY'RE ABOUT TO HAPPEN!)

94 Go to England

95 And Italy

96 Scream

97 Cry

98 Laugh

99 Laugh

100 Laugh

THE END.



I'm actually really happy that most of them were able to be bolded. =]

Everything engulfed in brilliant orange. Everything. Just literally up in smoke. All you've worked for, everything you've been working for. Baby pictures, wedding pictures, good china, yearbooks, collections, stuffed animals, favorite books, all four walls of your house; All gone. It's still a mystery as to how it started. Some say a candle, others say a cigarette, but all the investigation did was leave the same question unanswered: how? Now you've got to rebuild your entire life. You. From scratch. Everything you once had. And not only, but people in your life are no longer. A grandmother, mother, daughter, a woman faded away that day. A granddaughter, cousin, niece, a baby faded away that day. An uncle, brother, son, a man also faded away that day. Now you have to rebuild your life without those people to stick it out with you. Yes, your family is large, and tight knit, but you're all being tested. No one likes being tested. And no one likes to lose everything they've ever had.


March 23, 1975
Rest In Peace<3

life; it makes me sad.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

"gimme back my girl and you gimme back my life."

So I feel beyond dead. Physically.My throat is swollen so bad that my esophagus is the size of a nickel. My head is throbbing, and I have a fever ranging from 100.3 - 102.4, it fluctuates. Not to mention, my natural temperature is 96.8. So you do the math and realize that 100 degrees feels like 102 to anyone with a normal body temperature. And 102, is 104, and then you're dead.

Also, I can't get a doctors appt. How lovely.

Why do I always have to be the one to clean up the mess? Why does everyone around me turn into a pile of absurdity at my feet, looking up at me wondering when I'm going to MAGICALLY fix them. Why the fuck do people think I can fix them? They assume I can, let alone want to. I can't even fix myself. And I'm beyond broken. I can't fathom why someone would turn to me. ME. Of all the people in the world, they turn to me. Even people I don't know tell me the terrible things that go on in their life. I don't know if they are asking me to clean them up, but I feel like someone's always got to bring ME with them when things go wrong. Me, someone some people don't even know. The CASHIER at Goodwill. Like I'm all ears and ready to fix them. What do I look like? It's even worse when it hits home like this, because I need to fix the people close to me, or they'll break, and it'll break me even more.


Fuckkkk.